Irenaeus of Lyons believed, “We never could have learned anything had we not seen him with our own eyes and heard his voice with our own ears.” In Jesus Christ, God fully lives in the experience of our human nature. He prays in such agony over His death that His sweat turns to blood (Luke 22:44). Death is real, even for God. God can do whatever God pleases, and God chose to plunge into the misery of death and demonstrate dying in front of the world, nailed to a cross. When speaking of the addict’s surrender of life to God, the Rev. Sam Shoemaker wrote this: “We felt we had come somewhere within hearing distance of His [Jesus Christ’s] tremendous surrender ‘Let this cup pass…nevertheless, not my will, but Thine be done.’”
"In the latter part of the last century, there has been much discussion of our ‘denial of death.’ But it would seem to me that the problem is deeper and more difficult. If it is true that Christ shows us what it is to be God in the way that he dies as a human being, then, quite simply, if we no longer ‘see’ death, we no longer see the face of God."
(The Very Rev. Dr. John Behr)
There is a direct correlation between talking about death and the stability of our faith. If death is a reality we wish to deny, then our faith for healing will be at risk. If the ability to see death is taken away, in the context of today's faith-healing ministries, we might ask, how were we not able with our faith to raise the dead?
Death Positive is a philosophical and social movement gaining momentum through community efforts of bringing death back into our conversations. It is a culture shift ushering in a positive mindset around death as part of living well. The goal of the movement is to redefine death. I believe this budding movement is the platform for reviving Irenaeus’ Recapitulation model in ministering to the dying and in a contemporary charismatic healing ministry for the Church and the world.
“If anyone wants to come after Me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow Me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it” (Matt. 16:24-25).
In his book, The Red Badge of Courage, Stephen Crane tells the story of Henry Fleming, a young Civil War soldier who enlists in the Union army in hopes of fulfilling his dream for glory. But, a long time goes by before his regiment is called forward to the battle, and the fear of dying begins to set in his mind. Henry wonders if he is courageous enough for battle. Then, upon seeing the enemy for the first time, Henry’s courage fails, and he flees the battlefield. This is an unforgettable picture of the reality of human nature. To die is inconceivable. It is something humans constantly work against and pray to avoid. The hardest part of dying is not knowing what new life will bring. How could one know? New life is something that has never been before.
There is an open field for fresh theology in contemporary healing prayer ministry while preserving an orthodox perspective of the Scriptures!
Sufficient Grace: Suffering is Hope
“O Love That Will Not Let Me Go”
George Matheson, 1842-1906
O Love that wilt not let me go,
I rest my weary soul in thee;
I give thee back the life I owe,
That in thine ocean depths its flow
May richer, fuller be.
George Matheson wrote the hymn, “O Love That Will Not Let Me Go,” at the age of 40, on the night of his sister’s wedding. George was flooded with the painful memory of the woman he loved who did not marry him because he was losing his sight. Through deep and personal suffering, George came to know and trust in the love of God made known in Jesus Christ.
In the Scriptures, Paul, the chief of sinners, gives us God’s answer to his plea for God to remove a thorn in his flesh. “My grace is sufficient for you for power is made perfect in weakness” (2 Corinthians 12: 7-10). Paul makes it known that this thorn is given to him. In ancient literature, a piercing of the flesh by a thorn or an arrow signified love’s invasion of the body; it was a common theme in love poetry. The love of God is found in suffering.
O light that followest all my way,
I yield my flickering torch to thee;
My heart restores its borrowed ray,
That in thy sunshine’s blaze its day
May brighter, fairer be.
God does not seem to be a particularly sentimental God. The heart of God and God’s willingness to share in the sufferings of the world God loves come to articulation in the event of the cross. To bear a cross is to bear the suffering that brings the crown of glory. The love of God does not find but creates that which is pleasing to it, and God creates from the nothing to which he reduces us in suffering (Martin Luther). In suffering, God rids us of the unbelieving old Adam so that the new life may begin. Jesus tells Nicodemus that unless a man is born again, he cannot see the Kingdom of God (John 3:3).
Contrary to what we might want to believe, we are addicted to sin, and the cross is the intervention; it is the “bottoming out.” We are never more in touch with our apostasy than at the cross. The false optimism of positive thinking will do us no good when it comes to sin. But, it is also in the cross that faith recognizes that God is gracious. In our deepest sorrows and our deepest wounds, we can be assured that God has shared in our suffering in the life and crucifixion of Christ. Jesus was crucified at the hands of the human race, but he makes it known that he laid his life down on his own accord; it was not taken from him. “No one has greater love than this, to lay down one’s life for one’s friends” (John 15:13). God’s grace is sufficient for you. God will have his way. This is good news because life is held in the hands of a Creator who creates from nothing:
“Other virtues may be perfected by doing, but faith, hope and love, only by suffering, by being passive under the divine operation. The soul is taken hold of [by the pure word of God]; it is stripped of its own garments, of its shoes, of all its possessions, and is taken away by the word into the wilderness, to invisible things, into the vineyard, and into the marriage chamber. But this leading, this taking away, and this stripping, miserably tortures [the soul]. For it is a hard path to walk in, and a straight and narrow way, to leave all valuable things, to be stripped of all natural senses and ideas, and to be led out of all those things which we have been accustomed; this indeed, is to die, and to descend into hell.”
According to Martin Luther, this is the proper disposition of the sinner to the grace of God, and it is important to note that this suffering is not the theology of something we must do (theology of glory), rather it is the theology of something that is done to us (theology of the cross). This dying brought on through suffering causes us to finally know and speak the truth about God, exposing the idols we have created of Him. His saving work seems strange, but we must first die so that we may live. It is in our suffering that we cry out (like Job) to God as the ultimate answer to it all.
O Joy that seekest me through pain,
I cannot close my heart to thee;
I trace the rainbow through the rain,
And feel the promise is not vain,
That morn shall tearless be.
Summarizing an interesting exchange between Jesus and the disciples, specifically Peter, in Mark 8:29-38: When He asks them who people say that He is they respond with John the Baptist, Elijah, one of the prophets…”, but when He asks them, “Who do you say that I am?” Peter answers, “ You are the Messiah.” After sternly ordering them not to tell anyone about Him, Jesus openly foretells His death and resurrection. Peter pulls Jesus aside and rebukes him. Jesus, in turn, rebukes Peter with the words, “Get behind me, Satan! For you are setting your mind not on divine things, but on human things.” He called the crowd with his disciples and said to them, “If any want to become my followers, let them deny themselves, take up their cross, and follow me.” We will lose our lives on account of our salvation; we will die so we can live. We follow after Christ in the way of the cross, and it is here we come to know the God that we are looking for in our terms of human glory. In the way of the cross, we worship God as God intends us to worship God. By this passive experience of suffering, we come to know Christ as the Messiah, and we come to know that God is the ultimate answer to it all.
O Cross that liftest up my head,
I dare not ask to fly from thee;
I lay in dust life’s glory dead,
And from the ground there blossoms red
Life that shall endless be.
We would never construct a God such as Jesus Christ or a God who takes your shoes. We would never construct a religion patterned after the cross. As we experience our own sinfulness before the holy God who declares, “I am the Lord your God,” we may want to run away from God. But, in this declaration, God promises to be our God! God will not leave us nor let sin and death have the final say over our lives. Christ mirrors God’s. As we come to know Jesus, we come to know God, disguised in human flesh and humility. God calls us in grace to experience God where he bled and died on the cross. God calls us to know the passion of the God who saves sinners.
“Grace cannot prevail…until our lifelong certainty that someone is keeping score has
run out of steam and collapsed.” Robert Farrar Capon (1925-2013)
I first read this quote in one of my favorite books, The Christian Life: Cross or Glory by Steven A. Hein. This quote catches me by surprise every time I read it. For by nature we are theologians of glory and daily my thoughts of God pursue him as the One who will fulfill my will according to my prayers. But in all reality, again and again, I will be brought to the depths of pain and sorrow as God thwarts my will in order to make room for His own. It is a holy anguish.
Hein makes no soft talk page after page he discusses the theology of a God whose will it is to bring us to absolutely nothing to prepare us for His grace. He says that “He never comes to sinners to inquire if anyone is interested in becoming a Christian.” (1) This is a God who hides himself in death on the cross instead of taking an alternate route (which He perfectly has the power to do). We will feel the reality of this terror as we lose the grip on ourselves that separates us from him. Our sin is our pleasure and the illusion of owning ourselves is a false pride that will fall hard as Christ takes on the work of the New Creation that we have been baptized into.
Martin Luther’s Heidelberg Disputation takes us through the meaning of his Theology of the Cross. Here we find the truth about our perceived good works. As good as we believe they are, we must be separated from them. For they are the source of a pride that fools us into believing they offer some merit for our own cause. It is a juxtaposition in that it is in our piety we say precisely that we do not believe!! We believe in the law more than we believe in Jesus Christ. Gerhard Forde says that good works are the “seat of sin.”(2) The cross reveals it is really our spiritual aspirations (disguised as good works) that we must hold as responsible for the seriousness of our sinful nature. How strange! But yet, how strange it is that God incarnate died at our hands to save us.
Capon’s quote above is an echo of Luther’s Heidelberg thesis 18: It is certain that man must despair of his own ability before he is prepare to receive the grace of Christ.(3)
Briefly, there are two types of despair to discuss: despair and ultimate despair.
Ultimate despair lies where we have not yet despaired of the self; it is to be caught up in a false regard for our works believing there is no hope beyond our own abilities.(4)
“Doing what is in one“ is the hallmark of a theology of glory, but with a theology of the cross, we come face to face with the utter depravity of our sinful nature that we will then judge ourselves by admitting we can claim absolutely nothing in the way of good works. Then comes the cry for mercy. This alien work of God’s law and wrath catches us in the false pride of our works and turns us to Christ for salvation.(5)
So we must have grace. This humbling work is death to the old Adam but it is also where true hope lies. Where we see doubt and despair is exactly where God is saving us and making us into something totally new. The love of God does not find, but creates, what is pleasing to it.(6) The one humbles is pleasing to Him. Humility is the faith that saves and it is in this faith that we are lifted up by grace and made anew.
Grace is the beginning. This realization at first causes despair because we have to have it, but it prepares us to receive. There is no way we can save ourself. But the old Adam by nature will fight to his death to hold onto a least something he can offer. And he will die and be saved from the ultimate despair and he will be set free. And this is the beginning of the new.
(1) Steven A. Hein, The Christian Life: Cross or Glory, (Irvine: New Reformation Publications, 2015), 2.
(2) Gerhard O. Forde, On Being a Theologian of the Cross: Reflections on Luther’s Heidelberg Disputation, 1518, (Grand Rapids: Wm. B. Eerdmans Publishing Co., 1997), 1.
(3) Forde, On Being a Theologian of the Cross, 65.
(4) Forde, On Being a Theologian of the Cross, 66-7.
(5) Forde, On Being a Theologian of the Cross, 61.
(6) Thesis 28 from Luther’s Heidelberg Disputation, 1518.
“O Love That Wilt Not Let Me Go”
O cross that liftest up my head
I dare not ask to fly from thee
I lay in dust life’s glory dead
and from the ground there blossoms red
Life that shall endless be.*
*George Matheson (1842-1906)
My Anorexic Nervosa was fully evident by the time I was 15. The worship of thinness and beauty in society presents an unrealistic ideal body image. I obsessively tried to maintain this through sports — mainly cross country running. I have learned in my recovery that the real problem is much deeper than this, and I can recall this struggle beginning as early as 8 or 9 years old. By the age of 22, I was both Anorexia and Bulimic.
“Eating disorders are among the most difficult mental illnesses to treat. Anorexia, in particular, has stymied many of psychiatry’s best treatment efforts. The illness has the highest mortality rate of any mental disorder, with patients dying from the medical complications of starvation or from suicide.” From the NY TIMES – 3/15/16
I grew up in a Christian home. I was baptized as an infant and I grew up attending Sunday school and church. I read my Bible and tried my best to live like I was a Christian. I struggled deeply with uncertainty and I carried this grief long before I began to lose weight and show signs of the emerging illness. I understood right from wrong and I felt tremendous guilt over anything I did that did that might not be right according to the God’s law. I prayed for healing and I journaled with prayer requests and scriptures relevant to the beauty of God’s creation and his design for the female being, but yet the disease continued to take control.
For me, an eating disorder was the impossible attempt to self-justify or to save myself, and because of this impossibility, it only offers death. I have heard it said in 12-step recovery meetings that having an addiction is no different than heading straight for the grave. It is this serious. I have been fully healed and although I had long been faithful in praying to be made well, the experience was unexpected and un-chosen. For me, healing was the valley of the shadow of death. Sorrow, sadness, and suffering were the merciless companions God used to strip me of the vanity I had created for myself in attempt to secure my well-being apart from Him. To my surprise, God intervened in my life with His cross, and I for a long time, I found it to be even more painful than the disease of eating disorders itself.
When the Great Physician reveals Himself to those in desperate need of His mercy, He is still wearing a thorny crown crushed on His head and He still has blood on his face – He is adorned in the full splendor and glory of His Passion. Jesus Christ finds such beauty in his wounds that even in heaven he still bears his scars. They are his glory and He wears them as ornaments, as trophies, and memorials of the fight. “By His wounds we are healed” (Isaiah 53:5).
I write this on my healing experience:
The life I strived for lies at my feet. I have not been reconstructed as I had hoped, but the beams and timbers of my own self-sufficiency continue to smolder. Broken glass from the rose colored windows of self-help promises make it dangerous so I must be careful where I step. The cross on my back has emptied me of my pride and my strength. I feel the realness of my sin. I feel the purifying fires of tribulation and my salvation has become tangible to me as never before. Bravely, I call this healing because Christ is saving me from myself.
Unbelief is the root behind sinful behavior and we are not capable of being reformed to a place we can handle ourselves in moderation. Healing is not about being made better, but it is about being made new. To speak of death for the sake of resurrection is to say that healing is the experience of the saving work of Christ where the sinful areas of our life are brought to an end so that we may be raised up in a new life of faith which rests in the provision of God alone. “For the righteous shall live by faith.” (Romans 1:17)
Before I began to heal from eating disorders, I had a misunderstanding of the Gospel. I believed in works over faith - the law as a code of conduct to be met by my own efforts. This manifested itself brilliantly in my battle with food. Anorexia is a disease of measurement and precision and Bulimia is a disease of shame. An emaciated and malnourished body is starving for the life and nourishment of the Gospel.
“Then he said to me, prophesy to these dry bones and say to them, ‘Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord’.” (Ezekiel 37:4)
By way of a holy anguish, God has separated me from this sinful ailment. It is like a skilled surgeon has removed a dangerous cancer and I remain under his cure. God’s plan of change within us goes to the heart of the matter. He deals first with the cause, not the symptoms. I been given a complete freedom from eating disorders. I can also attest to a complete physical restoration, including restored bone density, a common condition that accompanies the disease.
I have come to understand my own efforts of strict obedience were nothing more than a dead end because I never could have offered God the obedience or righteousness he demands. The law does not nourish us. Rather, it works death, as I can now see in my past life of eating disorders. In healing, I have certainly experienced the freedom spoken of in regards to Christ’s mission proclaimed in Isaiah: “He was sent to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners.” (61:1)
The cross is the pinnacle of our inability to meet the law and proclaim our own righteousness. It is here that we are rescued from the sin we cannot control and where we receive the grace. God meets us at the cross and he wounds us. There is nothing to do. We must give up and to rely on Christ’s donated dignity. Make no mistake about it, healing comes with a huge cost. It comes with the cost of losing your old life in exchange with a new one. We are not made ‘better’, we are made NEW.